What is it about Mercury retrograde + boredom that makes me so introspective? Is that what this retrograde is about? Introspection, change, letting go? I'm getting off to a very slow start this year. I think it's because I don't have my plan all mapped out yet. I have a rough sketch, but I'm not narrowing the scope of the plan. The good thing is that I can see the plan at its finish -- I can visualize the end game. I can smell it, too, and it is marvelous.
But honestly, this retrograde feels very stagnant. Like everything is on pause -- personal issues, ideas, the stock market! It seems like a hurry up and wait sort of situation with steps to move forward being made, but with the wind pushing back, so the steps are more quarter steps than full ones. The universe has us on lock down!
I had this idea back when I was still writing the book about creating a solid perfume based on waxes and salts -- and now I'm second-guessing myself. Should I move forward and experiment with this idea, or should I kick it aside and continue doing what I'm doing? I don't know. I can see something coming of it, it's just that right now, at this exact moment in time, I fear nothing I, or anyone for that matter, do will work out. So I'm going to wait.
And I'm dreaming in incense again. It seems like everybody is creating some kind of lovely incense, and I'm still sitting here trying to figure out how to sort the HP closet. In the meantime, my imagination is dreaming up a sparkling green tea incense with notes of osmanthus. And violets pervade my thoughts. My violas were killed last winter when they were brought in from the frost and then forgotten. I really miss my violas. My sweet mum planted them in an old ceramic coated stock pot that she had punched holes in the bottom with a rusty ice pick for drainage. She was always planting things in non-pots. I have a succulent she planted for me that's growing nicely in an old tin coffee kettle. I really miss her. What I wouldn't give for another minute of her time.